It had been long since I last blogged. Assignments hit me hard these days, and finals are joining in the fun real soon but my desire to blog is too strong so what's finals? Every single time when it comes to this critical time before exams, the idea of blogging will strike my mind. Perhaps I'm too good at distracting myself or maybe writing does let me express myself well hmm. So yeah decided to back to blogging in english after a moment of struggle (Too lifeless until I can even have a dilemma of the language used in a personal blog which not much people will ever read lol.) and I'm always bilingual hahaha.
So I'll continue at where I stopped last time which is this short getaway trip from university life which happened exactly three months ago oops I know my blog is always not up to date. Hmm a day before this trip there was this downhearted dinner with the gang which spent the few days in Penang with me. It was seriously awkward and depressing to the max, even though the food and the ambience there were good.
As for the story behind it, there's a truth I want to share. I should had been 1:X when I got into UKM or even if not, I would had changed my UKM score in a week or two. (Only UKM peeps know exactly what it is, it's somehow like a not so obvious code to indicate your relationship status.) But then I gave up the opportunity because of the new environment and the new social circle I'm in, and also the stress of dealing with a long distance relationship.
Well at times I'll still think that I'm mean, badass or something, and many people do think that I'll regret it someday, but I really had no faith in long distance relationship at all. I thought that 1:1, 1:2 or 1:3 would be easier so I decided to try my luck in UKM. I did had a target and at a point of time I was close to success, but then things didn't turn out like what I thought would be. :/ By now I don't think I can change UKM score by any chance, I guess people won't come for me since they all knew I'm targeting someone already, maybe have to wait until I graduate and start working? Hahaha.
And for that so called target, even though I considered him as my 'target', I didn't really do anything obvious or anything that was close to 'chasing' and 'pursuing'. It's really not my style, I don't initiate moves towards guys. And I have to stress on something, it wasn't love at first sight like what rumours are spread everywhere. (Like who on earth spread this?) I admit at the first sight, I did found him kinda attractive and had the thought of making friends and knowing more about him, but I didn't fall for him by that moment lol.
It was all because of some beautiful mistakes here and there that made me fall for him for real, friends helping me to initiate a conversation with him, seeing him often at events and people around us would put us two together during every outing or gathering. And after some interactions with him, I think that he's the ideal type I'm looking for, I mean he fulfills all the criterias I wish for in a 'boyfriend', his look, his height, his talents, his personalities, his attitudes, and the fact that he had never been in a relationship before. (Somehow I don't favour boys who are too 'experienced' because they tend to compare and have demands.) He even fulfills my secret little wish back then which is to get a boyfriend with a twin because if so the probability of me getting twins in the future will be high. (My family has two pairs of twins.)
Even so I had never had any hopes or thoughts that I would get into a relationship with him. I treated it as my impossible imaginations since I know exactly the type he pursued in the past and I know myself ain't good enough to meet his criterias. That's why I think the blame of me having 'too high hopes' on him is kinda unfair to me, because I never hope at the first place, it was him and people around him who gave me false hopes. To be honest until that point of time which I mentioned I nearly succeeded (Perhaps.) when I could feel him treating me differently and he even told his friend something that would excite me for a whole lifetime, that was the only time I started having hopes and thoughts that we might be able to make it into a relationship.
But then something (Which I'm still not exactly sure what it is.) just had to come in and interrupt, and tore me into pieces. If there was no hope from the very beginning then there would be no disappointment. But because there was this hope he gave me and then things didn't turn out like how I hoped for, it turned into a hurting disappointment. That's why sometimes I'll think that I would rather not have any hopes at all, then it wouldn't hurt so much.
Like seriously don't give me hopes and then give me disappointment. Don't give me hopes if you can't be sure that you can make it. Because it still hurts so much, hurting every inches of me.
By now I can only comfort myself with the thought that everything happens for a reason. Things are destined and meant to be, we can't control or change them by any means. There's nothing else I can do. I'm mentally broke down.
Ohh fcuk enough with emotional and out of topic rants. Let's get back to the trip. It was a all of a sudden trip which in chinese we called it '说走就走的旅行'. Just because the guys wanted to go to Genting we just randomly rented a cab and went there to join them.
Upon reaching Genting. :)
With my bae since kindergarten. ♡
Some photos at the theme park while the guys went into the casino. They are all legal to enter the casino but we are not. I wanted to sneak in actually but my girls didn't want to so I just followed the majority lol.
Lunch at some Hainanese restaurant (Can you spot the signboard behind me on the second photo? I think it's called Hainan Kitchen.) which we ordered their signature Hainanese chicken rice. Not to say very good, tasted just average and definitely expensive since it's in Genting Highlands Resort.
Loitered around with my girls after lunch and came across all these mid autumn festival's decorations.
After some window shoppings we decided to have a ride on the theme park facilities but couldn't decide which one to ride on. At last we chose a random one and like seriously four twenty-year-old girls went all excited for a three minutes ride hahahaha.
Afterwards we dragged the guys out from casino and went for bowling. Actually we all didn't know how to play bowling and created lots of funny memorable scenes with our lousy skills lol. And yeah the balls are too heavy for someone who doesn't have much stamina like me. But who cares what the results were as long as we had fun during the process. By the way this is my cute new friend the guys brought along to Genting, the way he talks hahaha.
Sat down and yumcha again after the game since we didn't know where else to go lol. There's nothing much to see or play in Genting at the moment as the new theme park is still under construction. Kinda excited for the coming soon 20th Century Fox theme park actually. :D
More and more group photos without that uncle who was still hiding inside casino. :P
Dinner at a restaurant which I highly recommended and brought them to. It's located in the mushroom farm and kinda near to Genting Highlands Resort actually. If you aren't driving, don't worry they do provide transportation services. Just call their number and tell them your location then they'll come and pick you up. And the food there is super good trust me from few years back until now it's still so good. Their signature mushrooms (三菇六婆。) is a must try and I love their tofu and fish too. Not to forget the price is so reasonable for such quality food and somemore it's a tourist spot, compared to those in the resorts and hotels.
Mushroom Farm Restaurant (香菇园海鲜饭店)
50, Jalan Jati 1, Gohtong Jaya, 69000 Genting Highlands, Pahang.
03-61005388
8.30 a.m. to 10.00 p.m.
Finally a complete but super duper formal group photo outside the mushroom farm hahaha.
Walked around at the outdoor after being indoor for the whole day. It only started getting foggy in the evening and half of the fog was actually haze lol since that time was the serious haze period even Genting was affected. And also Genting is getting hotter and hotter nowadays, not much like the comfortable coldness back then until I could even wear sleeveless outdoor. But well maybe my body is a bit more resistant to cold than the others because I always complain hot when everyone else around me feel cold like wtf is my problem.
